Friday, May 27, 2005

Is it weird that I just want to strangle my roommate’s little twiggist of a neck? She is so odd. And I am not one to talk about being odd considering the fact that I think I am one of the weirdest people I know, but she is just bad odd. Locks herself in her bedroom all the time, and ignores the fact that her roommates are even alive. She will be sitting in her room alone, everyday, all the time, watching the same exact thing we are all watching in the living room. Don’t understand, I know she has to like me, I’ve known her since 2nd grade, and were best friends at one point and considering the fact that besides me she probably has about, 3 friends, but she has a delightful drunk ass 36 years old ex-convict who cant hold down a job if he sat on top of it, and the best part………..he still lives with mommy and daddy. Right, still with me? No wait this is the best part, he thinks her friends are losers! Yeah, losers, this is coming from the guy who hides that fact that he has a drinking problem, let alone even drinks, and then hides the bottles under the sink so mommy and daddy or girlfriend can find them. I am a lose, right, I work 2 jobs, live on my own, pay for everything on my own, and like the person who I am and can admit if I have a problem, which like everyone else, yes I do and my problem is people like him. I love my friend’s good judgments. You know, I tend to think that there is something wrong with me, and then I sit back, observe and realize…………people are fucking stupid. And I mean that in a nice way.

I live in a world where I am surrounded by things that I feel like I have no control over. I can’t control the fact that I want to ring her neck sometimes, I can’t control the fact that my cat likes to eat my feet for breakfast, and I definitely can’t control the fact that it has been weeks since I have written anything. And anonymous friend got on my ass about this. I am a busy girl with not a lot of time. I have a lot of thought and ideas; it’s just the time I am running out on.