Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Sex, Lies and Tattoos

So I haven't written in a week and well I have nothing too crazy to talk about. I went to the Social Distortion concert on Saturday night at the Wilthern in Los Angeles. It was amazing, Tiger Army opened up for Social D and I absoutly love them! They sang a little too fast but its all about that stand up bass! Then I got to drive back to LA and hang out for 6 hours as my friends car died after the concert and then got his keys locked in his car then we got to wait for a tow truck............we pretty much were stuck in a little grassy lot in the middle of the ghetto freezing our asses off. I have never seen so many fine ass tattoo men in my life though! I ended up doing more "people" watching then actually watching Mike Ness rock out. Oh well it was all dandy.

I had a run in with my old best friend who I was the Maid of Honour in her wedding. She randomly popped up at my house with her hubby and there baby girl Madison. Who was just absoultly adorable. I miss her so much, I dint think I did but after seeing her I really do. She is up in Sacramento now trying to get there shit together (drama drama) then hopefully moving down here by Spring. I cant wait, Im a Auntie! We had a falling out over a year ago due to differences of opinions and lifstyles, and hopefully the time spent apart can help our friendship. I need her back in my life, too many good times and faboulos memories.

Just out of curiousity: How would you deal in this situation? A girl I know lets say "C" got in a nasty ass fight with her boyfriend because, well, he's an alcoholic. And hes also 35 years old and shes 22. She swore (and I have heard this one before) she was going to leave him if she caught him one more (x1000) time drunk passed out on his cough she was going to leave. Let me break this down when she meet him she knew he was a recovering alcoholic and that he had 5 DUI's and obvioulsly didnt drive (hence the 5 DUI's there goes the lightbulb!) well she meet him at work and had werid older men fantisies about him and decided she was going to act on them. Next thing I know Im meeting lets call him "AA" (haha) and there you go full blown relationship. Well last Wednseday I was having a guy Im interested in coming over to hang out, and right as he is pulling up I get a call from "C" histarically crying saying she needs to go to a hospitol and get stitches! Her fingers falling off! It wont stop bleeding! She full went to his house to pick him up to stay the night then on Thanksgiving go to his parents house for grub and good times. Well she walks in the door and noticed him passed out on the couch, and in his case passed out=drunk. They started fighting and she threw a glass folwer vase at him and shattered it everywhere and sliced her middle finger off. Ouch, I stayed on the phone w/ her as she was yelling about everything that just happen. And I run out and bought a "First Aid Kit" (gauze and tape) and stitched her right up. Well that guy who was there is a puss and cant stand the sight of blood, and he totally got grossed out. I felt like such a man! I took care of everything! But here is the thing, "C" was talking to me about how much she loves him and wants him back, and if she's going to take him back, and so on, She was going off for like a good 20 minutes untill I not-rudley interupted here and asked in a very loving, sincere way, "C, after tosing a vase at his head have you maybe thought that he might not want to take you back?" I really don't think she every thought that and I could tell in her eyes that she didn't want to hear it, and shit, its always me that has to say it.

My cat died. Very sad. She was my favorite thing in the world. Her name was Tigera and she was 14 years old when she passed away on Thanksgiving. Poor thing had an Ulcer. She was such a cool kat, and the best thing about her was that she loved to be petted with your feet. You just had to sit on the couch all comfty and she was just have her way with your feet. Ok, that sounded kinda bad. Sorry if you haven't noticed I pretty much just type and let my fingers do the magic, I dont really think before I say anything. She was a great cat and I miss her and love her though and I just wanted a moment to share that. We also have a cat named Tink who we have had for about a year who is so cool, she is chilling on top of my computer as I write away. She's just watching me admiring my beauty, who is sad because Tigra is gone but is almost looking at me saying that she's sorry and that She is sad too. And about 2 weeks before Tigera died, a weird new Black cat started lurking around our back yard. It turnes out that our neighbor got it to kill the rat problem they were having but instead moved out right when they got him. So he had no where to go and found his way to our home. The timing is too coniencidential to look pass. We named the new cat Boomer, and Boomer and Tigera always looked like they were hanging out talking, chilling you know what cats do. And bam a few days later Boomer is sleeping in my newphews room and is part of the family. Its strange, cats have always just managed to get drawn to us.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

If you know your on my heart why are you standing in one place?

I hate guys. You are all the same. Take my heart and stomp it into the ground, I cried at fucking work yesterday beacuse of his dumb ass. I am so DONE! I going to have the philosophy of if I don't look or expect it, it will naturally find me. Right? Thats how it works? You act like you dont give a shit and they love it, dont wear your emotions on your sleeves, dont be desperate, dont act like it bothers you whan it really does. I dont know what to do or what to think. Why cant a awsome, fun, cute, smart, intellagent man find me? Why must I look. Times are so different, I hate being the one who has to go out of my way to introduce myself or start talking to a guy who seems interesting. I want to find someone to make my heart stop and knock me off my feet. Why cant I find this? Am I too worried? Do I care? I dont know.............

Take You OutNo, I get a guy who randomly asks me out by asking if I want to make out later. Classy huh! I want to be wined and dined. I want to go on a date and have a guy actually care what I have to say or what I know. I am picky though, which doesn't help. Im thinking either a Jake Gyllenhaal, Ryan Phillippe, Adam Brody, Justin Timberlake, Jude Law or a Johnny Depp. Either one will do, it doesnt have to actually be them, but just close to them. But he has to be a little bit of a bad boy like Colin Farrell. I love the Sexy bad boy image he has going for him. Which defentaly does not work for anyone, but when it does it is damn good. In Love

Monday, November 22, 2004

David vs. Golith

So I was gone camping all weekend in Santa Barbara, so I just heard about the Indiana Pacers ves. Fans confortation in Detroit. They were stating that there might be criminal charges aganist the basketball players. Ok, their bad they should have kept it cool, but are we that eager to forget that these 7" foot talls ass dudes are still regular people and if some guy I dont know threw shit at me and was talking shit I would have punched his ass too! So what now? That fan can sue Artest and etc.... that is bull shit and nothing is going to happen to that fan that started the whold thing by throwing objects at him! What about the fan, can the basketball player sue him? Acourse he can right? Am I not seing something here?

Friday, November 19, 2004

Facts of Like

Can Guys and Girls just be friends?

I had an interesting converstation with this guy I am seeing on this. He says it is just absoutly impossible to just be "freinds". I kinda believe him, but with an exception. I have quite a few guy friends which Im sure who don't necessarily like me like that but would probaly sleep with me. I think each guy/girl has one true opposite sex friend that you would never admagine is a million years you would end up with, but it does seem that usually one or the other person has s slight crush on them. I have a best guy friend who knows me too well to ever like me but I wonder sometimes if I was to initiate it would he? Trust me, I dont want to though, I need adleast one guy who I can talk to like a true freind, get the man's opinion. But, maybe its just not ment for men and women to be just friends. Hear me out, there is always (admit it already) adleast one guy friend you have that you secretly want to jump them so that technically makes it a one sided friendship, if they both felt that way they wouldn't be friends. Then you have the boyfriend Girlfreind title, they might think they have this wonderful best friend, false your not suppose to fuck your best friend. Also when you break up and you do the more then often,"Well I hope we can be friends" and you try for a few weeks/months and the second they get involved with someone else there Pissed Off! Why though? If your just friends why would they be mad?

What do you think?????

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

My Eyes Burn

I havent written in a while because Im experiencing something that I like to call Worst Week Ever! It all starts on Friday Night. Im suppose to go on a date to the movies with this guy Ive been on and off talking to, well I guess his friend Ryan is better in bed than I am because I got ditched for him. Oh but wait, he invited me to hang out with them (how sweet) Right. So I told him to fuck off and I took my sweet ass to a party in Redondo Beach which helped my un-disirable ness because if I do say so, I was the cutest girl there. Its amasing how by going out to a party can make you feel so much better. Im not cocky conceided, I just think Im a catch. And Im not a girl hater-I love meeting new people, espically if its a cool girl, hey its all good to me! But, these girls Ive been meeting lately at partys are seriously lame! Annoying is a good word too. But oh boy, my guy friends love the annoying slutty girls who all they talk about are there boobs. EX: Stupid short blonde girl from Saturday night party in Fountain Valley, 18 years old, fake blonde, sounds like she sucked up hellium, ya you know the type. Well so I manage to collect a huge headache.

So Friday night I also had a freak accident invloving a cat, my car and me in the middle of the street screaming/crying. I was very dramatic this weekend. But this was not exaggerated. I was driving to my moms house to pick up my new ATM card because my number got stolen (that is how I started my week, im still recovering so Im just gonna break down the weekend, and I got so stoned to block it out so honestly I just dont remember what happen) So im going seroiusly 20 mph down our street and all of a sudden I hear a large THUMP and I felt something litterly run into the side of my 4 runner. I ran out of my car and the cat was laying in the middle of the street and it wasent moving untill I walked over and it jumped up and ran away. Well, I felt like shit so I went to the house and told them what happen and they found the cat and it was bleeding out of the mouth, and was breathing irregularly, so they took it to the kitty doctor. I have never cried so much in my life. Also by it being a already terrible day turned into the worst week ever. I almost lost my job, almost killed a cat, got flake on by a date, was told I might not get a pay check because of lack of funds from work, so on etc blah blah blah.....

And yesterday I experience the worst migraine ever, but I made it go away with viccain. I full on left work it was soooo bad. I never do that, then naturally they made me feel like shit this morning. Oh, I really need to cut some loose ends.....

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Ramble on......Sing my song.....

So, Im really not having anything of much importance to talk about. Rarely different form any other day (Right). So I figure if I dont think and just type away, your more then likely gonna get the truth or confused. I manage to do both wonderfully!

*RANDOM THOUGHT OF GUYS: This guy who worked in the accounting department in a sister company of our left a few weeks ago because he was offered a better job. Trust me, McDonalds is a way better job then that company he had to work for. Well he is this cute little 30 year old asian guy who is way to smart and way to nice. Well, he emailed me asking him to go to lunch with him beacuse he misses me? Hmm....the little dude has a girlfriend, and I have had bad experiences with stalker status asian's (no offense, I've had a bad experience) And well like I said he has a girlfriend, and he is one of those guys that makes the comments that give that weird feeling you dont really like, and you stop and think to yourself "Please PLEASE tell me he doenst like me, I cant take 1 more guy who likes me that Im not interested!!!" I hate shutting guys down, it gives me the bitch reputation, but......Im going to scream! It only seems its the ones I have no interest in what so ever. Shit, I know Im picky but come on.......I aint settling for no one or nothing! So, should I spare him the tyrouble and not go to lunch with him? Or rein my tittle of Bitch?

*RANDOM THOUGHT OF BASEBALL: Why the hell did do they want to change the name of the Anaheim Angels to the Los Angeles Angels? Talk about an identity crisis........I live very close to Anaheim, and might I mention something that I though would be obvious but apparently isnt......WERE NOT IN LOS ANGELS OR EVEN LOS ANGELES COUNTY!!! Having said that, I have been a Angels fan ever since I could remember. Baseball is my sport, and the Angels have been my team for many, many years. Why would they even consider this? They have the Dodgers, why not adleast let us have Anaheim Angels. There going to do the same thing they did to the Los Angeles Clippers. Completely make it so nobody gives a shit because there is a more reconizible team from the same city, and not saying that the Dodgers are any better or any worse because I respect both teams, but unfortunate as it is the Dodgers are a more reconizible name and better know. If you desperatlt need to change the name maybe consider the Orange County Angels? Maybe a tuffer GRRRRR kind of name like the Anaheim Hells Angels? No........Just don't.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Revised-"about me" (Take 2)

*I live in California
*I Live with 3 roomates, 2 Ive known since kidnegarden
*I drive a new car I got last weekend
*I am a Virgo
*I work at a lame job
*The love of my life just got married last weekend
*I am ok
*All my friends are in relationships
*I am very picky
*I am addicted to red bulls
*I love music
*I would love to one day become a famous photographer
*I have a dog named Tremor who pee's everytime he sees me.
*It actually makes me feel loved
*I am 5'8 which sometimes I wish I was a little shorter
*I am scared to death of spiders, and well I just dont care for bugs
*I want to go to Rome, Itlay, Hawaii, and New York
*I have driven from California to West Virgina
*I love to draw
*My friends are drama
*It takes me a long time to trust people
*I have had my heart broken 4 times
*I have broken many
*I won most memorable in my senior year of high school
*I wonder if they remember me
*I want to fall in love, it is the best feeling in the world
*I just dont want to get hurt
*I know to much useless knowledge
*I am really into this whole blogging concept
*But besides that I hate computers
*I use to smoke way too much weed
*Now I wish I still did
*I wish I had a tan
*I want 5 kids someday
*I want to get married once and do it right
*But not for a long time
*I love going out with my friends
*But I dont like going to clubs
*I am too honest
*I dont use my own advise
*I could live off of sushi
*My favroite Actor is Johhny Depp
*My Favorite actress is Drew Barrymore
*But the hottest are Jude Law and Ryan Phillippe
*The best movie ever is Garden State
*The best bands are Sublime, Finch, Linkin Park, Thrice and The Used
*I am in a boring stage
*I could go on forever but I dont like people to know me too much...........I enjoy the element of surprise.

Santa wants to send me to the Bahamas

Here goes my random thoughts of the day: (its a sloooow day....)

Santa = Bahamas? Hmmmm.....I dont think I've been good enough this year. Oh, if there was only such a thing. Maybe some of my nice friends will role play Santa this year? Maybe? No? Ok....I got this ridiculous idea from an email I just received asking me if I want Santa to send me to the Bahama's for Xmas. I would Prefer Greece or Ireland.

I want a guy to write a song about me, but not a sad depressing song about how you got your heart broken, and now you want to kill yourself. I think that is the best thing I could receive as a gift from someone that means so much to me, beacuse you know they sat down and thought it through and who knows how long it took them, and on top of that its all about you! Whats not to like about that.

I am becoming sickly obsessed with Texas Hold'em. I got the game on my new cell phone and had no idea how to play and know I could write a fucking book about it. I mean is that what my life is comming to 22 and addicted to gambling. I am in some serious need of professional help. (Plus Side) Adleast its not real money! Not yet.............."Hey anyone wanna go to Vegas baby?"

So I think Im going to become a perment Flapper, I wonder if they have professions like that? I was looking at pictures from halloween, and I wish I looked like that everyday. I have never gotten so much loving from the homies! =) (sorry ghettoness popping out) But serious, why couldn't we wear stuff like that everyday as normal attire without people making assumptions about the type of person you are. And trust me, I really dont give 2 shits what people think ( I consider that one of my good qualities) I really just dont care but, there is no way I could where that to work, and by the way where I practically spend every waking second of my life (well seems like it adleast). There already think Im weird.

Monday, November 08, 2004

Not Today

Today just isn't the day to talk to me, look at me or generally be in the same room as me. My work sucks, and well my manager sucks even more. Have you ever had one of these? Where if something goes wrong on there end it magically becomes your fault? You somehow get tricked into apologizing and then you realize, "What the hell am I apologizing for?" I dont kiss his or anyones ass here, if it is my fault I will be the first one saying sorry my bad. But, when it comes to taking the blame for someone else, im not cool with that. Grow some balls and face up. Grrrr........they make me so mad. It was my best friends birthday on the 6th so naturally like any other weekend, we partied and didnt sleep, except for my occasional Sunday reutine where I go to mom's house and sleep on the couch and get really, really lazy. I gotta catch up on my sleep, and fast.

Parking TicketWhere starting worst pick up line list. I found this one on my little Smiley Central. I have alot more but this one mad me HA a little bit. What is up with the pick up lines? I've never heard one that made my say, "oh my god, Im defentially going home with him" I remember the cornest one I heard was, "Hey, if I give you a quarter will ya call me?" Obviously before the world was taken over by cell phones. But, it still to this day makes me laugh and wonder if it actually worked on anyone? So if your out there and you remember me from 6 years ago standing in front of the Taco Bell in Garden Grove I need to know if that line ever worked so use that quarter and let me know.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Stumbling on the Bandwagon

Yulp, I voted.

So lets see what happens. I have to admit though it was quite an interesting election in the political world, and that somewhat helped. You know whats sad? I have actually encountered people who are soley choosing the leader of our country for the next 4 years on their looks. Hummmm.... Kerry is definitely going to lose.

Ok, thats going to be my extent of politics. Its almost over don't worry.

Well actuall it is over!!!

Yeah. Well enough of that. I had a pretty fun Halloween weekend, and it turned out the party was pretty cool! I was so scared, I hate being the one throwing the party and using there house, but not bad. It wasen't too many people, but just enough to have a good time. I dressed up as a flapper, and might I add I am one sexy flapper! I never wear dresses and I got to shock all my friends by wearing it and at an another party I went to on actual Halloween, oh boy I loved the attention I got! Shit I even managed to have an ex-dating guy want to start seeing each other again. Hmmmm, well see.

I have a confession: As much shit I talked about R. Kelly, I hate to admit it but I really like that new song he sings with Ja Rule and some girl. I really don't dig most of that style of music, but this is a really good song! Its called "Wonderful?" I think theres something wrong with me.